The Breakdown Region

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

Comet

I looked up alone at the night sky and saw a comet.
It began and vanished completely in an instant.
But it reminded me of you, and my chest began to hurt.
I want to see you right now, but I can't fly through the sky

If only I can become a comet,
I will fly through the sky in an instant.
No matter what kind of tomorrow comes,
this thought will be strong.
That's why this comet is completely indestructable.

At that time I complained, “I don’t like the rain falling”
Until now, I remembered what you said,
“Stars come out beautifully in the night sky after it rains.”
And I figured that I can fall in love with the rain.

If only I can become a comet,
I will always send the overflowing light.
When you're sad, just look at the night sky...
I will sparkle more, coz' I want to see your smile.

You're always fighting something by yourself.
The only thing I can do is be near you, but...

If and only if I can become a comet,
I would surely rush to fall from the sky.
Beyond a doubt, I would reach you on this moment's light,
and wrap your light around the shining sky.

If I'd gotten the chance to be a comet,
definitely, I will always be by your side for all time.

Stars

Stars...

The sparkles across the big black sky
in an evening full of magic...

A girl...
A star...

Girls are beautiful...
Stars are wonderful...
Both are miracles of God...

They shimmer, they shine,
but all of them brighten up the sky...

But only one star shines the most,
and it's the brightest one of all...
I guess that explains the sparkle in my eyes
everytime I look at her...

All I ever dreamed,
and all I ever wished
is to have that beautiful star
right next to me...

But, stars are too far,
and stars are too high...
I know I will never reach her
even if I try to fly...

You always seem so near
but you've always been so far...
Trying to catch your heart
is like trying to catch a star...

So many people love you...
I guess that's what you are...
I love you this much, baby...
I love you from this far...

And so I'll wait...
wait for that star to fall...

Then I will wish...
Wish that we could be closer...
Wish that I could catch
you when you fall...

Just let me hold you a little longer...
And if you do, I'll take this opportunity...
To know you...
To feel you...
To love you...

But if you won't fall, then I'll just wait again...
Waiting however long...

It's so hard waiting, but...
I guess waiting makes me love you even more...

Nothing

Nothing...

Nothing but a friend...
I am no more than a guy,
that you can talk to everyday...

Never...

Never together...
I realized that there won't
be a time that this will happen...

Nothing...
Never...

No day was a gloomy day
everytime I see you...
No day was a happy day
when I can't feel you...

The source of my happiness...
The reason for my existence...

Zip, Zero, Goner, Empty...
None...
Nothing...
Never...

I know I have made mistakes...
I know I should not hope for anything...
I know I could not stop my feelings...
I know I would not benefit from this...

But then again, emotions failed me...
Destroyed me once again...

It is a never ending cycle...
Feelings keep coming back...
The mind never overcame the heart...
Nothing was worth fighting for...

But like always...
I am a friend...
I always assure that
I am a friend worth keeping...

It has been proven...
A lot told me this...
"You are a great friend..."
"The girl you will love would
have been so lucky to have you..."

So many lines...
None of them for believing...

I'n not sure though...
I don't know...
But there's one person who I believe...
She said something that I will never forget...
"You're so much better to me
as a friend than a boyfriend..."

Perhaps that's what fate leads me to...
A friend...
A good friend...
A very good friend...

And perhaps...
...nothing...but a friend...

Time

Waiting...

I am waiting...

Waiting for someone to
come along my way...
Waiting for someone to pass by...
Or perhaps waiting for
you to come back...

Waiting...
Time...

Why do people wait?
Why do people spend time waiting?

When you wait, feelings are suppressed...
emotions are held back...
desires are accumulated...

The height of excitement
and the thrill of suspense,
all of these feelings
that lead us to waiting...

Or perhaps it is a sign of weakness...
Fear of not finding another person...
Fear of another rejection...
Fear of pain...

As for me, I just wait...
...right here waiting...
...and I can wait forever...
...waiting forever for you...
...waiting for that star to fall...
...coz waiting makes me love you even more...

Time...

One powerful word...
One powerful existence...
What can this 4-letter word do?

Time is a brute force...
for it can move planets...
Time is a powerful drill...
for it can turn stars into black holes...
Time is an earthquake...
for it can move mountains, islands, and continents...
Time is a hunter...
for it can wipe out an entire species of gigantic reptiles...
And time is a surgeon...
for it can heal a broken heart...

It is an event that will never stop...
...a property that will never be downgraded...
...a diamond that will never tarnish...

It is always existing...
nothing in the world can stop it...
nothing in the world can take it...
...except for love...

Love takes time...
Without time,
the whole world stops...
And that's exactly what happens
when we fall in love...

That's why some people go to a place
where time doesn't exist...
...in a place where the world stops...
...in a place where they could
give love and be loved...

In a place called...

"Dream"

Dreams

Dreaming...

I was dreaming...
Perhaps it may have been
but a long forgotten memory...

A dream...
A memory...

Things remembered when one is asleep...
Things forgotten when one is awake...

Where the deepest layers of our memory
become the outermost layers of one's dreams...

Which are reality?
Which are illusions?
One cannot tell unless one awakes...

Or perhaps they are,
at the same time,
both truth and fiction...

A vast nebulous with no bounderies...
An emptiness equivalent of my own existence...

I dreamt such a dream...

A long...
Never-ending...
Dream...

Dreams...

A life of a man...
And the lives of countless other men...
All but dreams...

Now that I am awake, those countless numbers of long,
heart-ending dreams are almost impossible to remember at all...

In those dreams, I loved one woman...
No matter the day, no matter the era...
That did not change...
Nor did her name...

That dream changed me...
That dream was the catalyst for me to resolve what my purpose was.
I think I know now...
What I have to do...
That long, long memory of a dream...
Perhaps it was the memory of my soul...


A dream...

I was dreaming a dream...
Or perhaps it was a memory...
From a distant past...

A dream...
A memory...

Those words I was unable to convey...
That day...
That time...

Those thoughts I was unable to carry out...

Words and thoughts...
The connection between the two...
Without words, thoughts cannot be conveyed...
Without thoughts,there are no words...
They are both as vital as each other...

They can never be divided...
Like the wings of angels...
Like a man, and a woman...

An unchangeable destiny...
Feelings and wishes one could change...
Meeting without the person who would change me...
and watching myself change...

I dreamt such a dream...

A long...
Never-ending...
Dream...

Dreams...

A life of a woman...
And the lives of countless other women...
All but dreams...

Now that I am awake, those countless numbers of long,
heart-ending dreams are almost impossible to remember at all...

In those dreams, I loved one man...
No matter the day, no matter the era...
That did not change...
Only his name...

That dream changed me...
That dream was the catalyst for me to resolve what my purpose was.
I think I know now...
What I have to do...
That long, long memory of a dream...
That perhaps was the memory of my soul...

(An adaptation from Squaresoft's Xenogears)